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    On the backs of seahorses' eyes


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      On the backs of

      seahorses' eyes

      Journey of a man through time

      Also known as Book Four

      §

      new & selected poems

      and other storybook tales

      1962—2012

      by Don Cauble

      introduction by

      Tom Kryss

      foreword by

      Audy Meadow Davison

      Other books by DON CAUBLE

      Poetry

      Inside Out

      early morning death fragments

      Three on Fire

      I am the one who walks the road / A selection of poems

      by Douglas Blazek, Tom Kryss, Don Cauble,

      with poem-drawings by Linda Neufer

      On a hair-pin curve just under a blonde's left eye

      Prose

      This Passing World / Journey From a Greek Prison

      On the backs of seahorses' eyes

      copyright © 2013 by Don Cauble

      Without limiting the rights under copyright reserved above, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying recording, or otherwise) without the prior written permission of both the copyright owner and the above publisher of this book, except in the case of brief quotations embedded in critical articles or reviews.

      The scanning, uploading, and distribution of this book via the Internet or via any other means without the permission of the author is illegal and punishable by law. Please purchase only authorized electronic editions and do not participate in or encourage electronic piracy of copyrightable materials. Your support of the author's rights is appreciated. For permission, address your inquiry to: seahorseseyes@gmail.com

      ISBN paperback: 978-1-937493-38-7

      ISBN hardcover: 978-1-937493-39-4

      ISBN eBook: 978-1-937493-40-0

      Library of Congress Control Number: 2013934677

      Manufactured in the United States of America

      Cauble, Don

      On the back of seahorses' eyes

      1. Poetry; 2. Short stories; 3. Storybook tales. I. TITLE.

      Book design: Carla Perry, Dancing Moon Press

      Cover art: Tom Kryss

      Cover design & production: Jana Westhusing, StudioBlue West

      Back cover author photo: Jane Speerstra

      P.O. Box 832, Newport, OR 97365

      541-574-7708

      www.dancingmoonpress.com

      info@dancingmoonpress.com

      First Edition

      Author's note

      Be not deterred by the length of this book. Simply read a poem or two, if it pleases you, then ponder upon the thoughts and feelings these words may have inspired within you, and then put the book aside for another day.

      As for the stories in this book, are they real or imagined?

      All stories are fiction, even true ones.

      In grateful acknowledgement

      In times gone by, some of these poems, in various forms, have appeared in the following daring and underground-breaking small press publications:

      ACID/ Neue amerikanische Szene; ampersand; Analecta; Blazek-Edelson Anthology; Broken Cobwebs; Costmary Press; Death Row; entrails; Lung Socket; Peace Among the Ants; stones tongues pools running brooks; Thee Tight Lung Split Roar Hums; Thee Flat Bike #1; The Willie; Tansy; 48th Street Press.

      Special thanks to Audy Meadow Davison for permission to publish "Flight of spirit," and "What happens when I read poetry." All rights to these works belong to Audy Meadow Davison.

      And special thanks to Lo Caudle for permission to publish her poem, "It's Your Birthday: November 30, 2009." All rights to this poem belong to Lo Caudle.

      In the presence of death, my mind has reached its limit and found a new freedom. Disillusioned, I rediscover a deep form of hope. Hope, as opposed to illusion or optimism, is not a prediction of things to come, nor is it redemption from something my small ego considers dreadful, nor is it a special knowledge revelation of a hidden future. To hope is to finally recognize the limits of my ability to comprehend the Power that has, is, and will bring all that is into being. Beyond that, all I can do is trust that inexhaustible mystery we all touch when we discover our spirit provides our best clue to the nature of Being.

      Remember to look for a heaven in a wild flower, and an eternity in an hour.

      Larry Setnosky

      Friend, teacher, artist, carpenter

      and fellow traveler

      4/10/1940—2/25/2010

      §

      One becomes two, two becomes three,

      and out of the third comes the One as the fourth.

      Maria Prophetissa

      Third century alchemist

      Contents

      Considering Don Cauble

      Flight of the spirit by Audy Meadow Davison

      What happens when I read poetry by Audy Meadow Davison

      Before the beginning 1962-1965 Lost words

      Yes, isn't it pretty to think so?

      Transformations, Diabolical Urges & Divine Inspiration 1965—1972 We begin with the sun

      3 night letters

      Death, too, is a game people play

      Even God must be lonely at night

      After the Wipe-Out Gang come the Keepers

      All night the river flows

      Love outside the asylum

      Somewhere between streets & asylum wax-stocked girlflesh torments & wet eye focuses

      Cars move straight like over streets and I'm moving toward

      Come on in, she said to me

      Inside you whispering thru shut sockets and circling light dreams

      Standing still

      Deadwood with screaming roots

      There's nothing you can save

      With one foot in the grave, the fool pauses & dreams he's dancing

      When you come to her door empty handed, and she tells you, It's time to go

      In a moment you'll begin to suspect who I really am

      Death of the fly

      The last man standing

      Out of the tomb, a child of light

      Remembrance of you Journey to Greece 1972-1975 Before

      I knew we would never meet again

      A single flame lights the universe

      Bottoms up

      How the world came into being

      Remembrance of you

      The big iron gate

      Beyond walls

      To be free

      The cry

      Ten times worse

      In stillness comes the fire

      Only the earth

      On the work farm

      Chopping corn

      "Dear Amur," her letter begins

      Aspirations of a poet or, a minor urge to explain myself

      The days come and go

      The whole room turns to light

      That night of stars

      Total fire, at last 1975-1981 Total fire

      All those years

      Thinking of you

      Just like that, I am born

      Surrendering

      Thoughts on a river

      The gathering storm

      Getting in touch with your psychic energy

      Dancing in the fire

      Total Fire, Finally

      Turning the wheel

      All these things twice

      The last thing on his mind

      I'm leaving

      Going

      Going into the darkness 1981-1985 As night descends

      Drawing people out

      You knew

      Thinking of Helen on an island off Greece

      A bone for the dogs

      Going into the darkness

      This something-in-movement Or, Cr
    azyMan Returns to Mother's Arms 1987-1995 Every road leads to paradise

      This something-in-movement

      Grace & grit

      Wild strawberries

      Endless the beginning 1996-2005 Before the beginning

      I remember

      Outside my thoughts

      Endless

      Looking out my kitchen window at the cemetery 2006-2010 In praise of Basho, W. C. Williams, & Charles Bukowski

      Knowledge on the line A few questions

      Even if I can't carry a tune

      They could not remember a time

      An essay in which I attempt to explain to a friend how I see the world

      Rummaging around in the basement A confessional poem

      Winter, thinking of spring

      As I look out my kitchen window

      The Dusty Traveler I sing this moment

      Once upon a time, A love story of timeless and personal proportions Or, in the words of Emily Dickinson, "a route of evanescence"

      It's Your Birthday: November 30, 2009…….. for Don

      Returning to the future

      What will you take with you?

      Some people think

      On the mother of all roads

      Falling in love

      Let us now praise famous poets

      Late thoughts Where did the morning go? 2011-2012 In between, I am becoming

      We're here or we're not

      10,000 years from now

      Why are we here?

      This world we live in

      As if you had never been alive

      As long as the fires keep burning

      Gravity always wins, and a dog, they say, is never wrong Or, Watch out for that falling apple!

      To future poets, whoever you may be

      The Truth about the real truth

      Turning 70

      Looking back, with a bottle of wine & a grain of salt

      To grab the tiger by the tail

      After the last line, what? (4 billion atoms I'm told)

      Running streams

      Tonight, alone in the house, I drink and I ponder this world

      Growth of a kangaroo court

      In praise of small things

      Singing in the morning, singing in the afterlife

      Only so many mornings, only so many evenings

      Dreaming, just dreaming

      Tombstones after all these years

      Round and round goes the moon

      Stretching to touch you, relaxing in the flow. Nowhere to go.

      God speaks to me

      Whose child is this?

      Let the story begin Out of our dreams, comes the world

      For you

      This Passing World/ Journey from a Greek Prison

      Thoughts on This Passing World

      About the author

      How to order this book

      Considering Don Cauble

      In June 2004, I came across several of Don Cauble's poems in a pile of publications passed along by the poet and publisher Matthew Wascovich. At the time, I hadn't heard from Don in many years and the sight of the wonderful poems prompted me to contact Wascovich to convey my excitement. Matthew Wascovich provided me with Don's email address and, after 27 years, we were again talking. One of the forms these communications took, and to bring each other up to date, was the emailing of poems back and forth between our respective screens in Ohio and Oregon. For the most part, they were works by other poets—poems that for one reason or another had stuck in our hearts over time like a series of arrows. We broke off the shafts, so to speak, and exchanged them over the internet, without much explanation or comment. Within days, my email box was overflowing with poetry and I received via postal mail a typescript copy of Don's On the backs of seahorses' eyes and began reading it without taking the time to assume a seated position. From the first words, it was easy to see that Don's own poems were every bit as remarkable as those he admired by others. There were warm, philosophical letters to friends, stories from the work farm and prison in Greece, acts of magic performed by the stars over the Aegean, meditations on love and the wave—all from the perspective of a man who constantly questioned his own need to set into words the thousands of poems lived and experienced in the course of a day. In a poem dated from Corfu in the seventies, Don wonders whether he will ever again see the Oregon rain. The Oregon rain. How does it differ from the storm on Olympus? By the time I had ingested this tour de force of samsaric travel, I was again standing firmly on both of my legs, as it was the only possible position from which to launch a salute. Returning to the lawn chair in front of the early generation Dell, I had the odd pleasure of opening up an email from Don that included, in attachment, a high-resolution photograph of a galaxy. In Don's "A Single Flame Lights the Universe," he witnessed, gazing into the night, the death of a star, and in the accompanying instant his field of vision segues to the woman sleeping beside him. Now it is the summer of 2012 as I read the current version of this book, and it is again late at night. Don's words, the ongoing product of a life of contemplation and engagement with the moment is, to me, a staggering record of one man's commitment to the human spirit—glow, as soft, as textured, as the map of the sea in a seahorse's eyes.

      Tom Kryss, June 2004—July 4, 2012

      Flight of the spirit

      by Audy Meadow Davison

      I've been thinking about people like flocks of birds—you know how they will suddenly fly into a tree, first a few and then the whole flock, and stay, dancing around, and then one will fly and then another, and then the whole flock except for a few. I've been thinking about people that way. A generation comes in and we dance around here on earth, chatting and flirting with each other and one of us will fly, and then a few more, and then almost the whole generation, just a few are left. It seems like our generation has started to fly. How do we choose when to follow?

      What happens when I read poetry

      by Audy Meadow Davison

      it is simple to slip on the silk garment

      that we call life, even though the world

      we pass through is always turning it into

      a rough cloth or something synthetic, artificial

      and unhealthy. Still the morning is clear,

      and at night, the stars can almost be seen

      through the light daze of the city. Even the

      sidewalks grow moss and weeds. If we pay

      attention, life keeps calling us. Even our busy

      days give way to sleep and the dreams that

      speak in different languages, images and

      emotions. Even our own minds return over

      and over, if we let them, to forgetfulness.

      And our bodies talk to us in pleasure and well

      being, they talk to us in stiffness and pain.

      Isn't that enough? What are we seeking?

      Moments of simple joy arrive and disappear.

      Pain comes and goes. Who knows where? Who

      knows why? Who do we think we are? And

      through all our tomorrows, life keeps calling.

      Portland, Oregon

      Spring 2012

      On the backs of

      seahorses' eyes

      §

      Journey of a man through time

      Before the beginning

      1962-1965

      §

      Which of us has not remained forever prison-pent?

      Which of us is not forever a stranger and alone?

      Remembering speechlessly, we seek the great

      forgotten language,

      the lost lane-end into heaven,

      a stone, a leaf, an unfound door

      —Thomas Wolfe, Look Homeward, Angel

      §

      all which isn't singing is mere talking

      —e.e. cummings

      Lost words

      Where are the lost words that drag my heart

      deep, deep into your shallow arms?

      Lost words that drag upon my heart.

      Sounds that speak your eyes.

      Lost voices muffl
    ed by the noisy throb

      of your steel

      and concrete heart.

      Somewhere in the hot Georgia night

      a pretty girl with soft slurred voice

      laughs

      as the lightning flashes.

      Somewhere on a ragged beach, two young lovers kiss.

      A sob catches in the girl's throat.

      Then, silently, they wade into the ocean.

      The water crawls onto the shore

      and washes their proud sure footprints

      into lost time.

      Lost words.

      Lost sounds.

      A passing glance through a car window.

      Warm sparking eyes seek the wanderer's face,

      they promise him life and love forever and ever

      until the morning,

      if only....

      Browned grasses that bend beneath the October wind.

      A girl dressed in a yellow two-piece suit

      lies upon a small rotted wharf. She watches the waves until she drowns.

      Where have the words gone?

      Lost words. Lost voices.

      Books lie scattered in the mind

      like clusters

      of dead leaves,

      like dry, rustling wind-sounds.

      A college boy searches for a lost chord

      on a cheap guitar.

      He thinks of a girl with aureoles

      of sun-warmed hair.

      A girl with freckles across her nose and cheeks

      stammers, There is a god.

      A boy with unruly hair takes his hand from her blouse

      and answers, There is no god.

      Lost sounds.

      Lost voices in the night.

     

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