With a dance to match
Hypnotizing with his eyes
Voice soft, yet aggressive
We began to dance
That’s when I knew
We were dancing to different songs
-JH
Love is hard. We often love someone giving 20% while we give 80%.
Love your equal. Know your worth. Love is 50/50
-JH
Him
Treat him like someone else is waiting for him to be available
-JH
Love
Give him everything he didn’t know he wanted
True love
-JH
Try
You can try all you want
Everything about you seems sweet
Some might say that you are amazing
Some might say that you are perfect
Only thing is
You’re not him
-JH
Flaws and All
You’re just looking for someone to love you for all that you have to give
No more, no less
You’ll give nothing less that what you have
Why should you take less then what you deserve
-JH
Honey
Your words were like honey
Your love was the bees
-JH
Sides
If you want to impress me
Show me yourself as you are
I’ve seen all the sides of you that you aren’t
-JH
Demon
I saw you for the demon you were
I still tried to change you
I became one in the process
-JH
Today
Together we inspired this book
Today I published it
-JH
Dark Love
You can’t lose what was never yours
If he leaves
You never fully had him
That’s the dark side of love no one wants to talk about
I’m not afraid of the dark anymore
-JH
Hurt
I love you
Not with me
Not around me
You are easier to love when you’re not close enough to hurt me
-JH
A Note
On a personal note
I can’t tell you why we do what we do
Something about love changed you
Opening up about us
Telling my truth
The way we used to trust
And how it’s all just a bust
-JH
Truth
If you wanted me to believe you
You could have tried the truth
-JH
Dan + Shay
Songs of our love
Now nothing more than the taste of tequila
-JH
Feel Pain
I wish I could let you feel the pain you inflicted on
others
Not to hurt you
But to show you how your actions affect people in your life
-JH
It’s taken some time, but I have come to realize that if you are focused on the past, you will never have a future.
-JH
The Key
Don’t leave the door to your heart open to someone who no longer needs the key
You gave it away to someone who didn’t deserve it
It’s time to close the door and change the locks
-JH
Battle
Inner battle
You can see his lies
You know he’s been moving around behind your back
Still you want to see the good in him
Can someone really change
Will you be the one to help change him
Were you not enough
Was love really there
How long do you wait
You think you see the light at the end of the tunnel
Could it be another lie
Break the cycle
Release yourself from the cage you trapped yourself in and fly away
-JH
Potential
Eyes wide open
Look at yourself in the mirror
Do you miss him or the idea of him
Did you love him or just his potential
He’s gone for a reason
You don’t need to hold onto someone who’s only going to be the kerosene to your fire
If he’s not fighting to keep you
Why are you going to fight to stay
It’s time to see things as they are
Not for what you wanted them to be
-JH
If you have to text him first or you don’t talk all day
If he never calls unless he needs something
If the only time you guys actually get time together is when you move your schedule around
It’s time to start putting yourself first, because he’s shown you that he won’t.
-JH
A Reminder
I leave a reminder on my arm
A tattoo so I never forget
Lessons learned
Now as permanent as can be
I see the pain I passed and I’m reminded of how strong
I am
-JH
When a man treats you poorly, it’s because he’s projecting his own imperfections on you. Don’t return the favor. Leaving is the best thing you can do for him. Even better for you
-JH
Love Languages
They say that there are only 5 or so I thought
Words of affirmation
Acts of service
Receiving gifts
Quality time
Physical touch
They never mentioned lies….
-JH
When life comes at you with the vengeance of a Wolf protecting her pups, it’s natural to feel defensive and lash out at everyone around to return the favor.
It’s important to remember that just because bad things happen, it doesn’t mean that life is bad and it’s now time to give up on everything.
Without heartbreak, hurt, or trust issues you would never appreciate when you find someone who would nurture your heart, love you, or never lie to you. Like the saying “it’s always darkest before the dawn”, you have to pass the dark (pain) before you can see the light (love). I know it doesn’t seem fair; life balance can be a bitch when it wants to. In time this will come as a gift that you once thought to be a black lump of charcoal. Like coal, this pressure is only going to make you the diamond you truly are. That’s when you will see this as the life lesson it was always meant to be. Right now, it’s important to take in the pain you are feeling and grow from it. Understand what’s happening and how you got to this point. Only then will you be able to make sure it doesn’t happen again.
That’s part of the learning process that will keep you from letting it happen again. Remember that you are not the first nor the last person to feel heartbreak. Unlike the great white shark, we are still evolving. More than likely we still hold onto things we probably shouldn’t. Over time, we learn to let things go. Standing on our own after a broken heart can take time, and that’s okay.
You are still turning into the person you were always meant to be.
ámese a sí mismo primero
(Love yourself first)
-JH
I’m Sorry
I dragged my feet as I walked to the front door
Feeling my heart beating as fast as it ever has
The room became hot
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sp; My hands sweaty
Losing color in my face rapidly
Knowing the end was nearly here
As the door opened
He stood there
A shell of a man
Tears rolling down his face
He knew what was going to happen
Without any hesitation
He looked me in the eyes and said the two words I never heard him say
“I’m sorry”
-JH
Fallen Angel
Presented as the Morning Star
Lucifer took hold of my heart
Breaking me down day by day
He brings the curse of “love” disguised as a gift
Giving it so freely
Wrapped in the perfect package
The man of your dreams
Capable of breaking your heart
Piece by piece
And I gave it willingly for love was a gift
I accepted it with open arms
Breaking apart the best parts of my heart
Now I’m as fallen as the rest
He gave love and it put me to the test
Heartless and empty
Pass or fail
I’m left in my very own hell
-JH
Arachnophobia
Each word I say you spin into lies
Like a spider creating a web
Waiting in the shadows like spies
Living together while you were in disguise
You look me in the eyes
When getting caught you improvise
Even sometimes revise
Turning out to be unwise
Now you can live with yourself in your web of lies
-JH
Afraid
Don’t be afraid to be alone
Be afraid of loving someone more than they love you
-JH
Mealtime
I’m attracted to love like a mouse is to a snake
-JH
Beautiful Lie
Marriage is the beautiful lie we tell ourselves
Because divorce is the truth we can’t hide from
-JH
Shadows of You
Anxiety follows you like a shadow
Following you step-by-step
Regardless of how fast you run
It will always be one step behind
As much as a smile can brighten up a room
A shadow will always follow
The moon can reflect the sun all night
But she will always have a dark side
-JH
Boomerang
I push him away
He comes back
Ever faster than before
We are stuck on this rotation again and again
A never-ending cycle of give and take
So who’s gonna be the first to break
The one who tosses love away
Or the one who comes back to get hurt
With a magnetic pull over him like a boomerang
I know it drives us both insane
But the more he’s away
The more I want him to stay
-JH
A note from Jake:
Starting over might seem impossible.
Everything feels one thousand times harder when you are carrying around the weight of a broken heart. Days turn into nights. Nights turn into mornings. Sleeping patterns blur together. Food means nothing to you. You leave your phone on do not disturb so you don’t have to contact any of your friends or family members and have to tell them about everything going on.
Slowly one day at a time, things start to become easier. I promise! From personal experience, isolation doesn’t always help. Sure, take a day or two and let it all out. Cry, hurt, stay in bed all day watching Friends on Netflix. Eat that pint of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream that always makes you feel better till you see the bottom of the carton and realize you have to get up and walk back to the freezer for another one.
Then it’s time for you to hold your head high and remember who you were. You are a positive ball of light that attracted people to you. That’s how you got into a relationship in the first place. You attract what you give off. If you are sad and stand off-ish, you are going to bring that energy into your life.
It’s not going to be easy or an overnight fix. Try meeting up with friends, even if you don’t necessarily want to. It might be hard to find the energy at first but given some time, things will turn around. Surround yourself with people who care about you and genuinely want the best for you. They are going to be a huge part in rebuilding your self-esteem.
Remember to take the time you need. Everyone moves at a different speed when it comes to healing. Emotional wounds can be some of the hardest to heal. Just know you are not alone in feeling this way. It won’t be the end of the world, just the end of a chapter in your book of life experiences. In the end you will be able to understand what it is you need from a relationship and how to see the signs when things are not feeling right.
You can do it!
XOXO
-JH
About Jake Houston
Jake Houston was born in California where his father was stationed as a Marine. Moving around a lot as a military brat, his family later settled in a small town in Arizona where he was raised as the middle child of eight kids.
His mother’s love of photography led him to want to be on the other side of the lens. Academically, he excelled in the performing arts, giving him the advantage in the performing arts academy in his high school. This led to modeling, which gave him the opportunity to be a part of many runways, magazine spreads and TV commercials. Still wanting to try something new, he then began to write. Finding his voice in heartache, he wrote his first book, “Pieces Of A Broken Heart.”
He is a proud supporter and member of the LGBTQ community, and has taken part in various community service projects aimed at helping LGBTQ youth. Giving back to the community has always been a part of his core values and he enjoys continuing to help and take part in charities in his hometown.