Time is a great healer
Remember when you'd go away
To look after your Dad?
The first few days were strange, but hey -
It wasn't always bad!
It actually felt sort of free
To stay up 'til 2.30
To have the whole bed just for me
And leave the dishes dirty!
But I'm not made to be alone -
A short time passed, and then
I'd yearn for you to come back home
To make me whole again.
And every day we spent apart
That feeling grew and grew -
I couldn't wait for you, dear heart
I couldn't wait for you.
So wonderful, the days you came
To be back at my side!
So different, yet so much the same
This feeling now you've died.
I know (of course!) I'll never hear
Your key in our front lock,
But I can't stop one hopeful ear
From listening round the clock.
And though (of course!) my head accepts
That I won't see your face,
My foolish body still expects
Your loving, warm embrace.
It's been quite long enough now
Since the day you went away
I want you back, I want you back,
I want you back today.
So let them think I'm not a mess,
Or stronger than before
But each day I don't miss you less -
I miss you more and more.
Martin Carter
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The Sea of Life
From the moment of birth
We sail the Sea of Life
Our parents, Captain and Mate
Our Family, the crew
Our Home, the ship in which
We sail the Sea of Life
Through childhood years
The joys and tears
We learn the ropes
To help us cope
As we sail the Sea of Life
Time passes, we voyage on
Meet new friends to sail along
Some will sail away or fall astern
But a few will remain true
To the horizon of the Sea of Life
With luck we meet The One
Captain and Mate to become
With our own ship to steer
Navigate and clear
The rocks and reefs
Hidden in the Sea of Life
Through balmy days
Or wind whipped storm
Our little ship can sail along
Upon the deck we’re standing true
Captain and Mate and maybe a little crew
Sailing to meet whatever fate
The Sea of Life can generate
We know not when, soon or far
As we sail the Sea under sun and star
Our future tells a day to befall
Of towering seas and mighty squall
The day on which our plucky ship
Is split
Rudder, mast and sails all gone
Taking our Mate across their horizon
Beyond the Sea of Life
At the surface our body clings
To whatever aid the waves will bring
But our soul has sunk far below
A place we thought we’d never go
To a place of pain and such despair
There is no light, there is no air
Down in the depths of grief
Under the Sea of Life
There we lie, time forgotten
Amongst the mud upon the bottom
So much effort to beat the pain
Will we ever breathe again
But up above our body’s stayed
The link to soul battered and frayed
A slender fragile line down which passes
The air we need, a mixture of gases
To let us adapt to our new surrounding
Here in the depths of grief
Down in the dark we cannot stay
Our lost Mate wouldn’t want it that way
Up we must stand and forward tread
Like divers of old weighed down by lead
But where is forward, for here alone
There are no charts to takes us home
But up above, our one true friend
The body on which we must depend
To man the pump and guide us true
That slender lifeline leads us through
The darkest waters of the Sea of Life
By days and months and years
The rise is slow with many tears
Not up but along we go
To find a place where light may show
To shallower waters whereupon
Body and soul can once more be one
But now aboard a different ship
Rebuilt in time bit by bit
We sail to find a future changed
Not on the chart, not one we planned
On our voyage across the Sea of Life
Through voyage travelled, events they pass
To lose our Mate, amongst the worst
Happy or sad our memories make
To pass astern mid churning wake
But not forgotten, always there
Gentle reminders in the sun and sea and air
And then the day as before
Storm tossed sea, no sight of shore
Rudder, mast and sails all gone
Now take us over our horizon
Beyond the Sea of Life
But what is there? Perhaps we’ll find
A little port, an island behind
On the dock to welcome ashore
Our Mate of course just as before
Amid waving palms and tropical beaches
No more storms can ever reach us
Here to sit on sun warmed sand
Together again hand in hand
We gaze out over an azure blue sea
The peaceful Ocean of Eternity
Richard Hooper
In memory of Andrea Hooper 1967-2011
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On The Edge Of A Rain cloud
There is a moment
Pregnant with possibility
Before the first rain drop
Before the opening of the floodgates.
I wait.
Breathing in the moment
Feeding the emotion.
A single raindrop falls
Onto my cheek.
A single drop of water
Runs from my eye.
The eye that sees the rain cloud.
The edge of the rain cloud.
Knowing it will wash over me,
I submit to the rain.
I submit to the dark forces.
Every drop will wet me more;
My clothes, my hair, my skin.
I might fall to the ground, completely soaked,
Muddy and cold and seemingly alone.
And I might lie there until
The ground and I are one.
I am this dirt and filth and grime.
This is who I am.
And yet ….
I remember a moment
When I first touched you.
A moment, pregnant with possibility.
Had I not touched you,
Would I be here now?
The rain washes my hand clean,
And perhaps another’s hand will reach out.
Do I dare to touch another’s hand?
Can I stand on the edge of the rain cloud,
And step instead into the sun?
Jason Brooker
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My journey
What is this life?
If not a game
A game in which we all have a part to play
A game of trials and tribulations
A game where I fear the retaliation…
I long for peace and serenity,
A place of tranquillity
Where I can be myself and there is no fear,
Of anything else…
Life…
Could be perfect
Life could be great
Now it all feels like a big mistake
I feel so alone
This is my darkest hour
I am monotone, passive
I have no power
I long for someone to understand me…
Who could set me free
But alas I despair
Because nobody cares…
God…
God give me the strength
To go on in this life…
God help me to accept the things that I cannot change
God give me courage to confront evil and do good
God protect me from evil
God give me the knowledge to better myself and to make a difference during my time here…
God love me so I can learn to love myself.
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Believing and Dreaming
Dreaming is a road one takes
Where there are no answers…
Believing is the only hope one has
When the light is shining
But where is the light?
Takes time to heal the broken hearts,
the tears and the sadness
But one never forgets the pain they had to go through…
Nicky Sury
(in memory of Jazz Sury 1977-2011)
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What is Life?
(in memory of Jazz Sury)
What is life?
From the start to the end is a test that is life…
Travelling through our itinerary of time,
We can only try…
Looking back we may cry
Bad times may come to mind
But we need to do what we feel is right
Reaching the end we can only hope we tried…
As we approach the end of the road..
We can hope we did our best in life
What is Life? What is Life?
It’s nothing without my beautiful Wife.
Life…
Life is full of endless dreams
My thoughts are my own
No one can erase them
To do with them as I choose
To let them run free
I’m lost in the journey
Travelling on this endless flight…
With your strength I’m trying to set things right
I think, my journey is with you in my tribe
So cool relaxing and pure
Trying to forget all the pain that I’ve caused
Can you hear me?
Now I’m on this journey
To find myself again
Look deep into my eyes,
Or into my heart
There you will fine your true love again.
Nicky Sury
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To my husband…
(in memory of Jazz Sury)
There are many kinds of love we
Experience through life,
They’re the special wings that lift us
Through the pleasures and the strife
And loving you has brought joy into my heart
You’ve been the perfect husband right form the start
That’s why now is the perfect time to say
That the love we share grows stronger
day-by-day.
This love will last forever, no matter where we roam
Whatever comes our way we will fight it and bring love back into our home.
Nicky Sury
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1-4-3 (I Love You) for Jazz
I love you for so many reasons
Because you know me so well
Because your love gives me the strength I need each day
Because the best place to be is in your arms
I know I love you- just because you’re YOU
Nicky Sury
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Baby I’m You…
I wish you could see
That we are one and the same
You and Me
I crave your touch
My heart aches I miss you so much
I feel you’ve lost me
That you don’t see me
You can’t feel me…
Trying to get close to you
I drift further away from you…
So you think that I’m strong and you’re feeling weak
But we’re one and the same so you’re just
As strong as me
Cos Baby I’m you…
Nicky Sury
I can feel your pain… (for Jazz)
I can feel your pain
I know those days
When I can see the pain in your face
I can erase those pains
No more loneliness staring you in the face
Relax your mind no more need to fight
I will treat you right
I will show you the life
That for us is right
Do you want to go into the sunrise with me?
Do you want to live life with me everyday?
These are the words with me
Let me fulfill your dreams and fantasies
All I ask is that you stay with me
I can feel your pain…
Nicky Sury
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To my dearest hubby…
You are finally free from all the pain and suffering
You are free to lay down your heavy head
You are free to rest your tired aching body
You are free from all your pressures
You are free from your mind
You are free from the worries of others
May you be at peace and your soul go on
I will carry you forever in my heart
You will live on in our children
All my love always
Your Wife Nicky xxx
Nicky Sury
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Without You… (for Jazz)
I hold your heart
I weep for your tears
My sadness my own, all my grief, all my fears
This love hurts so deep and shadows my soul
I love you and lost you and on I must go.
So you left me behind
Without You
Alone.
Time passed, paths crossed, lives changed
My sky went black
I stand at the side, waiting for you.
Time passed.
Without you
I stand
Alone
Time Passed.
Nicky Sury
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For Kal…
Another year has passed us by,
It’s been so long since we said good bye,
We carry this pain inside our hearts
Our world as we knew it torn apart…
All we can do is hope and pray,
That we will meet again some day
Until that day there is no resolution
Instead all that’s left is hurt and confusion
Each day, each year comes and goes
Our hearts so heavy with woe
All I want to say is I love you Bro
More that you could ever have known…
Nicky Sury
(In memory of Kal Sian my baby Brother 1981-2005)
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Gone is the sound of your laughter so clear
Gone is the support you brought oh so near
Gone is the warmth in the bed t
hat you made
Gone is the peace that you brought as we laid
Gone is the strength of your arms round me tight
Gone is the happiness that gave me such light
Gone is the comfort you brought to our child
Gone is the ease she became so mild
Gone is the love that held me so straight
Gone are our chats we had until late
Gone is the smell of you around the house
Gone is your voice it’s as quiet as a mouse
Gone are your clothes you left on the floor
I still can't believe I will see you no more
Tania Marie Langbridge
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Too many tears
A broken heart :'(
l miss you Kev
Now forced apart
You had to go
I had to stay
My heart is shattered
Since you went away
My pillow sodden
My face red raw
I long to hold you
But can't no more :'(
What is my life?
Without you near!!
It's just not right!!
You should be here!! }:'((
But you had no choice
It proved too much
Did you hear my voice?
Did you feel my touch?
No final words
No kiss goodbye
I held your face
Tried not to cry
I have to try
To carry on
Though it is so hard
Now that you're gone
I love you Kev
I always will
I have to go now
As my eyes re-fill :'((
The days are getting shorter
The nights are closing in
The darkness getting stronger
On the outside and within
Holding onto sunshine
Holding onto every smile
The children's laughter
The children's glee
Keeps me going for a while
The mask it slips
At times its gone
But time's a great healer
And life must go on
But its very hard without you here
Gone is your warm smile
Your voice I can't hear
But in the eyes of our child
I can see you live on
With every beat of her heart
I know you've not gone
You're here with me now
Though in not the same form