No More Secrets
Copyright 2016
By Matthew James Kausch
Thank you Jacklyn, my beautiful wife, for lifting me up from the flames.
& my favorite muse: PJ Harvey.
“WHO WOULD LIKE TO PURCHASE A TICKET TO HEAVEN?!?!”
“Step right up!”
“Line forms to the left…”
“How old were you when you sold your soul to the Devil?”
People believe
& the ugly truth makes better liars
Everything has, is, & will happen
Lord hid
Attempted to be burned by Cardinals
Seasons
Just breathe
War after war
Forced to glance
At this ball of suffering
Floating by
Where are you divine one?
Go to the honey hole of misbelieve
The Devil takes care of his own
Trust
That is all he asks for
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Dug in
Trench after trench
Miles of barbed wire
Gas masks
Lead the landlord
Too young the soldier
Abandoned from above
Squeezing the life from silver religious medals
Hard frozen earth
Bloodied mud
“Forward!”
Cried from the rear
Into the fight
Into the light
Young soldiers
Deserted from above
March on
Kings’ pawns
Chewed up
99 deaths
Spat out
Burnt lungs
Germ guns
Mud
Forewarned
Into the end
Rows of dead
Candlelight
Fright night
Rains fall
Young soldiers
Deserted from above
Birthed from a pile of dead nations
Hell
Luck – the only word that the Devil holds as his own
One thousand different gates
One thousand different bibles
One thousand different gardens
Evil within these sunken garden walls of stone
White the color of a nigh souls end
Powerless
To which garden she is born
Revenge
Coming around
Once again
My Lord
All apologies
As hourglass sand turns to dust
Embrace each end
Remember: forever
Caligula
White wings
White clouds
White soul
Seed
Wiped out
Drusilla
Trampling daisy chains & running in circles
Crazier than a shit house rat
Be wary of the thumpers
As the ancient gods are busy gambling with old souls… & collecting new ones…
Father
Horror
Within the Devils’ whore house
Attempt to follow the many divine signs along the way
Personal nightmares come to life here
Silver blade
Tarnished by blood
Lord I beg as I burn
Please glance at this world of forgotten spiritual honey hole bees
Demons stoking fire pits beneath cell bunks
All praying for an early demise
Wish to conquer pain?
Listen well
Forgotten Holy Ghost
Here’s the cage
For the lord
Never forgives the stray
Demons hide in evening shadows
Watching
Waiting
Eyes aflame within reflection
Watch those eyes tear & come alive
As fear crawls up the spine
Fire growing higher
Forgot about Satan
This
The greatest theft of all time
Tricking the world that lords do not exist
Souls sold
Beside candle light
She spreads her legs
To let the insects feast
Drugs will make you do terrible things
Bathed in blood & sin
This, the cruel land of lost sheep
Love dead
& no one cares
Last caress
Once a crack head
Always a crack head
Feverish junk
Finding god under a stone
False idol: television
In every home…
In every home.
Souls stare to the end
False profit
Night terror
Here we go again
Crucifix engulfed in flames
False god: mercy
Only the God of torture listens to prayers
Serve well my friend
Conquer the pain
Within the beginning end
I keep my girl
In a bag
Under my car seat
In the glove box
In an empty cigarette pack
Glass pipes & needles
Honey holes & fevers
Pigs
Black cloaked pick pockets
Only god can judge
Handed a bill
@ The end
Pay now: prison
Where time exists.
Or pay then: hell
Where the clock is dead.
Remember: forever
Closed, dark, & cold
Churches bankrupt
Selling crack off the front steps now
Religion turned to fashion
Tattoos and jewelry
Hell has no fury
Like a demon scorned
The dead only know one thing
That it’s better to be alive
The Devil is in the mail
Like a killer amongst thieves
Beneath the November shadow of a cross
Repent
Sinner
Strolling through this creek amongst the damned
Rewired the mind
Tatter the brain
Again & Again
Over the rainbow
Bars in the window
Crazier than a shit house rat
Remember: forever
The madcap laughs
Born from the abyss
High on crack
Sitting on the roof
Staring into the night shadows
Demon eyes upon me
Black in the bleeding green
This demon walked away
A kitten
I never should have opened that gate
Goddess of wisdom
True violence
False love…
I’m the king of broken promises
I’m the man you love to hate
I’m the man of life long wait
I’m the fucking man
God is both good & evil
Tiny white stars in the night
Nothing but eyes
Staring down
The end is really fucking nigh
Hell eagerly awaits new souls
As demons grin on empty stomachs
Novembers’ coming fire
You pray
Cannot wait to get off this fucking planet…
Maybe in death
This dream
This nightmare
Comes to light… everything one third…
Father
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& The inmates favorite
*Condemning Holy Ghost
Grim reaper
Calls upon us all
For his smile shines on
For his job never done
Stream of the damned
All past nightmare sleeps
Shatter awake
Soaked in hate
Hope I’m in hell 20 minutes before the Devil knows I arrived
Try to grasp a wish from the fountain
While drowning
With the life line of one gold fish
Right & Wrong
Searing the flesh
Cannot ignore that smell
Remember
Forever
Just one wish
Before this record
Scratched
Starts over once again
The Lord searching her library
Who to play
Who to shelf
Love & Hate entertainment
Earth hovers within gods’ aquarium… one hell of a show…
In the humble homes den
Of the Devils’ whore house
She rides
All day
All night
Reminiscing of a flowers bud
From daddys’ little girl
To mommys’ little monster
From green to black & blue
On the 9th floor
Of the tower of song
Tear ducts empty
No warmth of a babys blanket here…
Personal savior
Condoms with flavor
The pack on her back
In-formation
Justice
Death to the herds’ own child
Wish to conquer pain
Listen well
Forgotten Holy Ghost
Here’s the cage
Mercy, Forgiveness, & Compassion he lacks
Knock upon heavens’ door
No answer
Ignored
Fires growing higher
Repent
For hell holds’ no fury like a demon scorned…
One foot on the moon
Why not?
World without keys
World without locks
No need for sin
Law here
One step above purgatory
Paralyzed clock
Have a magical time
Imagine she cried
As the front ranks died
Shadows of the night
No need to fight
Surrender she cried
As the angels continued to die
Mending wings with dew covered flower petal lips
Just to be frozen for all tomorrows’ parties
Remember: forever
Like a scratched record
Rivers of blood
Years of darkness
No angels left
Just the love lust saint
Marked maybe
False probably
Truth nothing but the stars staring down from the night sky
The eyes of old souls watching the show
A night sky cloaked in evil embrace
One daisy chain for Satan
One cardboard box for Jesus
Begotten & Loved
Like an avalanche
Fierce
She rises
God dead
No hope
Excess flesh
Removed
Steel razor
Cold & New
Look him in the eye
Love left behind
Pain
All that’s left
Laughter beneath the trees
Open & Bleed
War
Love dead and nobody cares
Bathed nightly in blood
In this land of lost sheep
Just trying to live through another love song
Time weighs heavy on faith
Faded and grey
Rusty crucifix
Hang heavy
Cracked stained glass
Once the soul
Gives in
To wages of sin
Confessions
Bound
Black as the sand
Those footprints left behind
But the Holy Ghost
& his revenge
Divine
Forgot about Satan
This the greatest theft of all time
Tricking the world that he does not exist
Fire
Heavenly star twilight
Passion
Soft moist lips
All she wants to do
Is fall in love again
Children playing god
Pure
This land
This record
On & On & On
Cains’ Garden of Delights
Dark eternity clouds
Awaken upon
Divine direction
War within the sky
Falls slowly to earth
Pain
Downward
St. Michael
Bruised & Bloodied
Left behind
No match for the last dragon
Entwined
Angels
Battle
Weep
Dark & Light
Both try to survivegood & evil
Through this night
As the war in heaven falls upon this lands’ eye
Shes been clutching her fists since she was 6 years old
Lost dreams
Oppressed by her figure of beauty
Hate breeder
Hold on
The dragon of time
Imagine
Once embraced
By this child of fate
Revenge whispered
Off her bloody face
An innocent pout
When you see her
You better run
Going to kill
Every goddamn nun
Devil
Rule
1,000 years
Or a while
Frozen
Forever
Demons in line
Face of painted wood
Soul afire
Waiting
Watching
Conspiring
Under the bed
Fangs
Dripping with anticipation
The last dragon
Gathers children in the wood once again…
Could this world be trapped
Beneath a filthy fingernail in time?
Just a hint
Of a larger painting
Like the Cupid lost in the wood
Another world
Not yours
Not mine
Fiend
Suspended in time
Planning an escape
From this stone maze
Book of the dead
Book of the damned
Bright eyes
Reflecting moonlight
Crawled out from a shadow
Black kitten
Marduk
Coming round again
Remember: forever
One thousand kisses
Marble halls of justice
Heavens’ war falling down upon earthly winds
The Lord
Never forgives the stray
So here is a little clay
And then there was light
So one must learn to fight
Crucified a manic depressive
Forgetful world
Nation of slaves
Faith nothing but a whisper in distant echoes
Just another blind man
Feeling around in the dark for the answers to the unwritten questions
Stars stabbing the night sky
Amo
rous?
Your guess
Is as good as mine
Tender green wrapped in white
She keeps it all locked inside
“I’ll throw rocks at your head!”
She cried eyeing the dragons’ tail
Remember: forever
Atop a hill
Waiting for wind
Which way Lord…
Witch?
Such as a demons’ flame
She raised her stick
Promising paradise
Led in
Through the marble gateway
Black hearted love
Engulfed in the nothingness
Dawn shadow of his cross
Broken sunlight with thousands crucified
Before the last dance
Remember to ask for nothing
White silky feathers
& an artistic mind wine
Beware of the time rewind
Remember: forever
Coming around the corner
God is good & evil
Left in the street bleeding
Losing heat
Left to die
Why ask why
Only the strong survive
The dragon walks on
Just another strung out poet paging Dr. Benway
Back to the dead ringers’ operating room
Angel personal savior through the storm
Soul damned
For the more we bury
The more the Lord is forced to glance at this land